1. Why are you an artist?Of any art form chosen to deliver any message, the truth of life within all things living cannot be said, only felt. The things we must find in all looses its essence when given form in thought -- lost to another creation in our own minds as the thought lingers therein.
Such is the case and why I choose the expression of feelings through visual art for it is rarely I deliver or receive a word without a multitude of meanings. Regardless I find I paint no differently from how I deliver words or receive them. . ..
2. Is there a concept behind your work? If so, please tell us about it.All things are of conceptual reality; we only do not truly realize it though we may know it. The concept of my work is about things seemingly unessential. . ., as Jean Dubuffet stated. Things we uncommonly find in others and ourselves even though it exists in abundance.
3. Why do you use the medium that you use?Honestly had I been given a choice, I would not have chosen the mediums I use today. They came to my use through the great gifts of No Alternative and by Great Accident as so many other things in my life. After loosing my immune system in '94, I found I was not able to work with most other mediums, but was able to use acrylics. Eventually I realized that the perceived limitations once again came as a gift as I developed many unique ways of rendering with acrylics.
The mixed media came about by accident in 2004 when I was surfacing my last canvas, or so I thought. I say last as I didn't think there would be any more canvases to paint as I anticipated going homeless if nothing happened soon. As such, I thought I would paint this last canvas as a gift to leave behind with all others for who ever took my home to have, or to throw away, as they pleased. . .. As I gave the canvas up in prayer while working the surface, the phone rang. My hands were a complete mess filled with molding paste. In an attempt to answer the phone, I grabbed a piece of tissue paper out of the trash and tried to wipe my hands clean, but missed the call for the tissue stuck to my hands adhering to the paste.
It was a call for a desperately needed job. While trying to answer the phone, as it was, I messed up the surface of the canvas for it was a dry hot day. . .. Out of frustration and haste, I attempted to wipe the canvas clean with the tissue paper that was stuck to my hand which then stuck to the canvas leaving me thinking I had destroyed the canvas as well.
The whole thing left me feeling rather strange. I can't describe the feeling but it was one of a déjà vu mingled with the lost call and the thought of ruining my last canvas ever. I wasn't ready to give up. . ., so it is easily understood that I could not throw the canvas away - my last love. Desperation to express one last time called and instead of ringing back as quickly as possible for the job, I decided to continue doing to the canvas what had been done to it already. With great care for the canvas, I smoothed the paper out amid a stream of tears and pulled even more tissue paper out of the trashcan and adhered it to the canvas in an effort to correct what I had done.

I cannot explain why I continued to do this, but I did it until the entire canvas had been covered. In doing so, I felt as though every thing was going to be okay. Yet during this surfacing, I thought of how raw, how unfair my life had been, what trash it was, the things I had been stooped to do to support my child, and the seeming foolishness of it all, but the question remained how was I to give to my child what he needed otherwise than through art? The thoughts were not of self-pity but acknowledgment; the tears not of sorrow, but like a leak of water from a bucket overly full.
I rarely tell about this canvas or show it for what it is for it is one of those things difficult to explain as the emotions I had in surfacing it carried with me as I went on to paint it - my last canvas which became the first of many in this my medium. As it was, through painting, I had rendered my life upside down without intent and did not see the imagery until I accidentally set it up upside down later to sign it. It was then I saw what the true rendering was which scared me to death because to see it and know what it meant felt like such great shame.
My life, nothing at all as I imagined it would be. . ..
But there was more significance to the fact that I had painted my upside down life. . .. It was not me, but rather what I had lived through and all the things thereof given up in prayer. It was my lessons - many of which I felt I had failed. Regardless, there was so much truth to it, I left it like that, right side up in prayer, and signed it knowing somewhere deep in my heart, all those things were gone from my life NOW.
I vowed after that all my paintings henceforth would be painted in this way until innocence prevailed above all. All bad things reshaped and molded again into beauty given with peace and without resistance. Like the gift I was trying to find within but could not see that day.
Since, I have learned a multitude of ways to work with this surface and finish, each bringing about its own personality. All learned through mistake or need.
The medium is an important part of my art in the message it gives in that all things come as a gift regardless of the package received.
About that job, long story short, I wasn't bilingual.
About the medium, I believe if we live each moment as we have it, and not resent it for what we do not have, nor what did not happen, or for what we think we need, we will ultimately find things are just as they should be.
Thus my style through my medium and process came about the same why my life did: by accident and with limits causing creativity. I try to remember that place from which I create always for it is as essential as the man made substances to the work. However, regardless of medium, or how applied, one must look beyond the surface to see the true work as in all aspects of life.
4. Your art and process seem to be metaphysical; would you agree? If so, how do you think this effects your audience?Please accept my compliment as it is the rare eye which can identify art in such a way!
You are right; my intention in art is metaphysical. Regardless of study, each work is comprised of a multitude of latent images given with much attention to create the one first seen. However, I am not able to say how it effects my audience as a whole as each person viewing will feel the work differently even if they see nothing at all initially beyond the surface image.
But I think this is true to any work of art. How it is felt. Whose soul it resonates with. In this manner of speaking, all works of art become metaphysical as they take on their own life and commingle with other souls of the same frequency. . ..
Regardless, just the same, I hope my work calls to a higher plane in that it invites one to meditate on it if only to see what else is behind the surface.
5. Who are your favorite contemporary artists?I am not sure if by contemporary if you mean those artists living in bodies now, or if you include those artists who have left their bodies while leaving their great breath behind to be shared by all in so many ways? I will give you all I can think of whom I admire and why regardless of current body or not.
Of course, Jean Dubuffet who stated: I would like people to see my work as a rehabilitation of scorned values and, in any case, a work of ardent celebration.
Ruth Bernhard who said, If I have chosen the female form in particular, it is because beauty has been debased and exploited in our sensual 20th century. Woman has been the subject of much that is sordid and cheap, especially in photography. To raise, to elevate, to endorse with timeless reverence the image of woman has been my mission.
I heed Paul Gauguin's advice in all when he said, It is the obligation of the artist to create, not to imitate, in hopes that I can define things beyond linear time.
As well I would never think to paint without da Vinci for his softness and depth of perception, his technique, he is my first and foremost instructor and in my heart, my greatest master.
I think many times of Michelangelo for his ability to bring physical form from elements of the earth as well the masculine quality of his work. Goya's Dark Period for the torment he recognized in society and his imagery that lies seemingly within nothing. Monet for his pallet, diffusion, and depth. Gauguin's passion and use of color, his purpose to create a new world through art as he searched for freedom without restraints. Van Gogh's movement and artistic purpose. Rothko's minimalism. Turner for his visions and influence on others though largely unrecognized.
Of other artists, I admire Phyllis Kapp, Valerie Estvan, Richard Scott, Thinh Nguyen, Maciej Gador, Gib Singleton, Wolf Kahn, and Tomas Hrivnac for their great talent and originality; in addition to those artistic components, Master Lee, Sun-Don, for his great message to the universe and originality. Peggy Guichu for her other worldly renderings. William Tode for mastering the hand of a genius into his own unique style, and Melissa Lambert for her great renderings of her meditative journeys!
6. What is the role of the artist in our society? and in New Mexico?The role of an artist is as it has always been, to create and uplift beauty so that the world is moved to further its cause. Today we are confused as a greater whole in that we try to define art as something new endeavoring to create value through the fallacy of individual purpose mostly for profit, but that is as false as the identity which states it. Regarding the money behind it, have you ever thought about the value of money and what a great artistic process that is?
7. Where do you see yourself as an artist in 5 years?As my hand has changed over the course of my life in response to the purpose which guides it, in five years I see myself wherever I am led on my journey just as I am now. My only hope is that my mind won't create an identity for my hand and cause me to stand still; as such, in 5 years I hope to be still watching my mind as artist and in who I am or am not. . ..
8. What are your ultimate goals as an artist?To create a better world through art while sharing the message most important to universal wellbeing of truth, love, beauty, innocence. . ., and all things pure.
9. What does art mean to you?Art means several things to me as follows: A way to communicate more clearly though feeling the truth behind all that is. A need to express life as beautifully as is given. A way to actually live while offering life in this what we call life.
Website for Denise Williams:
http://denisewilliamsart.com/